いまのキモチ

クリスマス休暇に久々に映画「The holiday」を観た。好きな映画でもあり、季節柄もぴったりなので、息抜きに。そのなかで、以下のIrisの台詞にじーんと来た。


I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. 
And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. 


ほんと、そのとおりだ。私の現状は、Little pieces of my soul is coming backかな。でも、those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fadeしてくれるんだろうか。それは自分次第、これからの人生次第だな。楽しく頑張ろうと思う。

こんな台詞に深く共感し、またここに記そうと思ったのは理由があるが。。。その理由は書けない。あえて書くとしたら、愚かなものだなと、深く深くため息をついた出来事が最近あったこと。なお、私自身に対してではなく、別のことに対して。

あぁ、深い心境は二度と書かないつもりだったのだが、一部書いてしまった。でも、この台詞は実に的確に表していると思う。

ちなみに、このscriptはネットで見つけたもの。同じように気に入った人がいるんだな。